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Today, I officially lost a special person in my life. A person whom I use to talk to everyday, a person who teaches me a lot of things, a person who touches my life in so many ways. I know life will not be the same again without you… but life doesn’t end where heartaches begin. Half of my life’s battle is just starting. I have lost you and lost a lot of time but I learnt to cherish my life more now…

Back to the Blogosphere

So here i go again, After I lost track on whats happening in the blogworld, Here I go again, starting to organize my stuff on the net and find myself nagbababad nanaman in front of the screen. It’s always been my way of diverting my attention when bored. And i know its healthy for me. The past months, I’ve been wrap up with my personal life, been to places, met new friends,  deal with new people and new environment, tried new things and learned a lot.

I also started to organize my facebook account yesterday. The reason? A lot of friends are asking me. ‘do you have facebook’? when i meet new friends they asked me the same question! and yeah, the games, nakakaaliw and nakakaaddict daw. poor me,  dint realize facebook really rocks! haha..

After losing my old friends for so long, I’ve started to mingle with them again the past days. I feel good knowing I have good friends who are always there for me when i needed them.  but  this is just half the battle. Don’t know what will gonna happen for the next months or years to come, but one thing for sure.. I will never stop laughing, dreaming and learning.

Ciao for now.

Love isn’t a Fairy tale

Love is a wonderful thing they say.. But it’s also messy, unpredictable, awkward, complicated, embarrassing, terrifying, sad, and lonely. It can also b warm, exciting, amazing, silly, bizarre, quiet, simple, and breathtaking. Many people think that if only they had a girlfriend/boyfriend, whatever, then everything would b perfect. But it won’t always be. Relationships r difficult. We have 2 work at them, like anything else. They definitely won’t solve all of ur problems. They will probably create plenty of new ones. But u will have someone 2 help u deal with them. And that’s half d battle, sometimes.

You’re going to argue. ur going 2 say the wrong thing, bring up the past, be sarcastic, act more hurt than you really r, shout, swear, cry, break things. Sometimes it’s hard 2 say sorry. If the other person s still angry, they might not b ready to hear it, or still feeling argumentative.

I have had a real serious relationship and it ended in disaster. Love din’t always end d way u thought it would be. We dint realized how much we love the person until he/she is gone. We let them go and din’t fight for our love and we’ll probably say “If only I could change one thing in the world..” blah blah.. We cry for it and regret it.

In the long run, we’ll be thankful for it because being hurt means being strong. I learned that no feeling remain the same intensity over time but under commitment they keep on coming along. It keeps being nourished so it remains strong even if the love takes on a different face. Love isn’t a fairy tale. It is Unconditional.

Can’t Shut my Eyes..

Can’t sleep again.. Just arrived home. Came from a birthday party.. friend invited me. Thanks to friends who just hang around.

The party was ok.. Good thing was, It ended early and it’s more on conversation and just a couple of shot so i went home sober.. Party will continue tomorrow at the beach, i was invited by a friend but i dont know if it’s a good idea to come.. Long story..

I went home, checked if someone’s online.. nuh.. as usual.. wala magawa.. I’ve been sighing and not in a good state of mind this past days.. I’ve been emotionally affected for things that went thru past months and i don’t want to be bothered already.. I had enough and I should get rid of this feeling.. Just have to be patient and be optimistic on things i guess.. Focus and hope that things will turn out right soon…

I ended up redesigning my blog template.. added some elements I found on the net. Its a good thing i have this space to sound off and to empty my mind sometime.. hay life..

Anyway i’l try to shut my eyes now.. Tomorrow is another day of planning.. Hope things will come my way. Ciao..